A test of nerve

Yep, I seem to be unable to write in chronological order. I'm picking out things, far and near, where I feel I can do justice to the notes I made.
So, where does that leave me?
I guess it leaves me writing this story in the best way I can. I won't write what I can't, which has to be a good thing.
I feel like I'm writing milestones - pieces which link up the tale. Recognisable staging posts, if you like. And in between, I feel I can write what I like, in the way I like, as long as it eventually comes around and adheres to the plot I've been mapping out.
Of course, I can't just write it - if there are no lyrical movements, then will there be any satisfaction at the end of it all - for me and the reader? I would expect not.
Above all, I'm conscious of the fact that I seem to have shifted from writing with a pen, to typing into my laptop. I need to look at this. I believe I will go back to the pen for the time being, then type it in afterwards. This may be temporary, as I know I have written my newer stuff, such as the new first chapter, and the rooftop flashback, purely through my laptop.
Which is the way? I'll only know when I try it. I do know what I'm going to write next, so how I feel about the method of physically writing will be crucial, as this is probably the most emotional piece of this story I will write. It's a flashback. The longest and most dramatic flashback in the story - possibly only about five of them, and their placement must be exact. They each have movement, though - I'm not just writing 'tells'. The rooftop scene shows that I'm not. I have to get this right, otherwise I think the whole story may fail. I don't have to write it at this moment, but I'm going to. After it, there will be some more pieces to do, then decisions to be made as to what should go where.
A bit of a jigsaw, but most of what I'm doing is the opening, followed by the movement into the tale itself. The stuff I've yet to explore will probably feel like a release, as I'm restricting everything so far to the beginning and to the movement 'in'.
I hope some of the things I'm doing aren't going to be redundant, and so far they don't seem to be. Like the sword fantasy I did (wot I wrote lol), I'm writing what I've always longed to read, just I can't find it anywhere; only glimpses.
Still can't write on tap. I have to wait until I know I must write it, or burst, crack up or something! It's not a strange feeling, just something I will have to deal with, live with.
It's fun! I'm not as apprehensive as when I wrote the new first chapter, that's for sure. I had to be persuaded to write that - solvey and Noel can take credit for persuading me to write something so dramatic. Something had to happen at the beginning, and so it did.
Got to match it all the way through, now.